thinking about...

Drama and more drama.
Basically about the future. When I came back to Edinburgh I started working with the agency and I though I could have more hours because of the festival but no. So I've been looking for job, a shitty one and easy to get (and for some reason is not that easy).
My plan B is basically if I don't find anything, just volunteer in the cafe and charity shop, I get free meals from both and I don't pay accommodation so I can survive for a month.

And because of that I've been thinking about the future. About what I'm gonna do when I come back from Canada. 
I spoke with a few friends and one is in the same situation than me, I'm surprise about her confidence, I wish I can be like that. And my other friend gave me good advice, I think I really gonna move to Glasgow (she want me to move to Aberdeen where she lives) and finally live in a house, no more hostels. I still don't know whats gonna happen in Canada and how everything gonna end between us but... I will spend some more time in the UK.
Anyway, even if I need to save some more money living in a hostel for a month I think is worth it. This friend told me that she was doing jobs that she don't like until she found the job that she's currently in. And about how we still doing shit jobs like we just came to the country even though our english is good and we are qualified for better jobs. So, shitty job for a little bit more in Edinburgh or Glasgow and then move to a house and have a job that I can enjoy. It depends of the accommodation too and how much money I have.
This is a little bit like the milk woman's story but is what I wanna do and better if I have it clear. Sometimes you need to tell someone or just say it out loud or write it somewhere to make it feel real.

Violet Evergarden -anime-

I decided to watch this anime after a few comments saying that the animation was really pretty and that it was a nice and quiet anime. And I needed that but I end crying because it was more sad than I expected.

Name: Violet Evergarden

Episodes: 13 episodes + OVA

Seasons: 1

Year: 2018
Where to watch it: Netflix and 9Anime

Violet is in the hospital after the war, she was a weapon and she lost her arms after that. But it seems that she don't really mind, she's getting used to the new mechanic arms and is trying to write a letter to her Major. But is not him who comes to bring her home. Now Violet needs to find out what the Major's last words mean, I love you.

The memories of the war and how Violet have to live with the past and start learning about her own emotions, becoming a Doll writing letters for others.

The animation was really pretty, the clothes, the landscapes, the details in the city, everything with nice colors. The design for the characters I quite like it even though the other Dolls are not very interesting or deep characters, in 13 episodes I think is not enough and everything is about Violet's development, and I think it happens quite fast, but when she knows what happen to the Major it wasn't any other way.

The last episodes are sad, basically is a country after the war so many of the stories and letters are about someone loved who is dead.
But at the end is when Violet has to front the war again, when a group of rebels want to take back what is theirs and she has to protect her friends.

I know it has an OVA that I didn't watch yet and a movie that will be released in 2020. 

summer and other things

I moved back to Edinburgh at the beginning of July. Sometimes I wonder if I did right but, too late to have regrets. Because in Inverness I had a job (housekeeper... job that no one likes) and free accommodation with lovely people in a hostel.
I felt quite lonely though because my friend, the one who asked me to go back, change and I didn't see her, almost 2 or 3 times in 2 months.

When I arrived I was in a hostel and then I moved to other one to work for the accommodation, I'm a volunteer and to be honest I don't mind, is not gonna be for long. That's what I said for the last 2 years but now is for real, hopefully I can move into a room around November, didn't know which city yet.
Anyway, at the beginning was weird because everything works different but I get used to and my bed is one of the best in the room, next to the window with the lockers at the end of the bed and next to the wall.
A friend moved with me not too long ago (and he keep asking when I'm leaving because he wants my bed) and other friend came back to the city, now with the Fringe should be easy to make money and I really hope so, I bought a flight ticket to see my boyfriend after a year, visa stuff and that so... quite annoying but for the moment is fine between us and I miss him a lot.

At the moment I'm working in a temporary job agency and I'm volunteering in a coffee shop, the hostel and a charity shop in the book part, I'm the 'book-worm'. Everything for make my cv better and have more job opportunities.
I don't have too much time to think in that I'm gonna cross the world to see him, what things should I take with me and what I'm gonna say when I see him again.
I will publish my list with 'Things that I want to do in Canada' before I leave but I have plenty of time, is in October.

So, I'm quite busy but in my free time I usually watch a lot of shows and anime, I'm trying to watch more lately but just animes with 12 episodes, I'm too lazy to start a long one. I might put something about that in here, I'm still not sure what I want to do with the blog but because of the movies and shows takes a lot of my time I might talk about it.
By the way, this blog is gonna be full of Sailor Moon but... it takes the worst of me xD some seasons are shit but, whatever.

After almost a year, a friend contact me, I didn't expect it and it was because the guy that she try to match with me was back in the city... no, thanks. But life was busy so, no time to think.

I'm gonna keep trying to apply for a full time job, hopefully I can get one even if is just for the fringe it's ok, I don't spend that much and I just want to save a little bit more before my travel. Looks like everything that I'm doing this year is for him but, to be honest, since he left I didn't know what to do or what I wanted to do.

about this

The main reason that I create a new blog is because I really liked this design for blogger and the second reason was basically to practice more english. I'm not sure how often I'm gonna publish in here but... we'll see.

I feel like my other blog is different from when I start, that I cannot say all that I want and even though I'm gonna write something similar I want to be more honest because I don't really expect to people to read me.
Anyway, we'll see how long I can handle it.

And about the name is because I like chai latte and the moon so, I think is a good name :)