words #1

'cause I feel like writing 

now that I feel so lonely

no one really cares

if I'm ok

'cause I'm not important

and life keeps going

even if I stop

even if you don't talk to me

but it's a world for me

when I don't receive a message from you

because I like your voice

is everything to me hear your laugh 

get upset for small things

saying silly things

to pretend it doesn't matter

to pretend that I'm not hurt 

'cause that's how I feel most of the time

when you keep open your mouth

but I cannot help it

codependency that I created in my mind

trying not to message you

to see if you miss me

but I'm so weak

keep breaking promises 

feeling so emotional

it doesn't even make sense

time goes by

It's been a while. 

I'm not very regular writing here but I don't feel like I have to, this is just for fun and to practice my english.

I didn't do much lately, finish my studies, buying presents for Christmas, trying to get in touch with friends that I cannot see anymore because we don't live near or in the same country, spend time picking the olives...
It got cold and we could say goodbye to an endless summer.

In the other hand, I've been sad, it's been a year already and in general I think things could go better but I feel stuck and nothing is moving. Most of my plans and dreams are gone now because is too late.

Feelings are not the same after a while and I don't know how to fix it. I think is time for a change.

Things to do in Spain

-Watch all the shows we have in stand by

-Eat popcorn while watching movies at home

-Go hiking around my village

-Go to the city and see churches, nice buildings and museums

-Go to Cuenca and visit the Enchanted City

-Visit a little bit Madrid
-Go to Toledo and visit all that we can

-Eat paella

-Eat typical desserts

-Celebrate my birthday

-Celebrate his birthday

summer again

I hate summer for a bunch of reasons... the heat, the insects, the kids on holidays and the fact that I don't have holidays but... whatever, I lived with that. 

Summer is almost gone (I want to be in autumn already) and I couldn't think in any entry here, I had at least 4 entries in my other blog but I don't know, I didn't want to think much. 

My summer was pretty much reading books and watching shows cause I cannot go out when is hot, it really damage my skin and I pretty much passed out if I stay too long under the sun. 

Other years i got obsessed with vampires (maybe cause I couldn't go out) and this year was fairies for some reason and I read a few books about that. 

About the shows I enjoy How I meet your mother (and I manage to finish), Chilling adventures of Sabrina and The Boys. I watched more but I finished this three, if not this list would be too long.

On the other side, I've been cleaning all my stuff and that means throwing away things or donate. I think we have many things that we don't use and it's quite useless having all that things. 

I would really like to redecorate everything but I think I'll be moving (hopefully) and my room will be not my room anymore. We've been kinda redecorating our terrace but we still on it, I hope it looks cozy and clean because it was kind of a mess up there.

Other things that I enjoy lately (let's not gonna talk just about bad things) are the ice cream, music and stars even though I haven't saw any shooting star. I still having time~ I used to miss to see the stars when I moved to Scotland and now that I'm back I never go out to see them...

Oh My Ghost! -dorama-

I had this dorama on my list for more than a year and finally I decided to watch it, it didn't take me long  tho, I should have done it before.

Name: Oh my Ghost!

Episodes: 16

Seasons: 1

Year: 2015

Where to watch it: Netflix

Bong Sun is a young girl who works as a kitchen-porter in a famous restaurant. She's not very good at her job but because she can see ghost and they don't let her sleep or make any normal life, she's afraid of them and have a lot of things of protection.

On the other hand we have a ghost, Soon Ae, a girl who died before time and because she's a virgin, she have to have sex with a guy with the opposite energy as her and she finally found him being Sun Woo, the chef in the restaurant Bong Sun works at. She's being possessing girls and pretty much by accident posses Bong Sun.

The thing goes wrong when she and Bong Sun fall in love for Sun Woo (who was angry and scary at the beginning) and when Soon Ae start remembering her past and how she died. Things weren't how she thought and a person they all know is not what everyone thinks hiding a terrible secret.

I really enjoy this dorama, is easy to watch and all the characters are lovely, there's not a love triangle (thing that I appreciate) and how it gets darker giving a complete different view from how was at the beginning. 

One of the characters that I liked is Kang Eun Hee, Sun Woo's sister, who even tho have a second role, she's really strong and have a sad story behind and deserves something better.

~

and then I remember about you and I start crying

why things have to be like this? why did you have to die?

not welcome

It feels quite terrible knowing that anything you do is wrong. If you clean because you clean or because you don't and if you cook because you cook or because you don't. I'm tired.

Not to feel welcome in your house and trying to find a way to escape and getting everything ready in case.

Is sad when you don't feel that you have a place to go back.